Being a subhuman in highschool destroyed my mental health and confidence for years

Last night I remembered one story from my highschool years I’ve been thinking about it all day. A really beautiful girl transferred to our school. Me and my mate made a bet on who would be the first to hit on her. He did it first, and she agreed. I wasn’t angry or sad about it, it was just a game to me. At the point when they ended up together, he told me how she’s been telling him that I was disgusting. a cr33p, the whole package whatever. I remember he told me this during a random class, after which I went home and didn’t return to school for the next three days. The shame from that situation was the most gut wrenching feelings that didn’t leave me for months. The worst part for me was that she didn’t even want to humiliate me. The told my friend this in confidence, it was genuinely how she felt about me, and I never even talked to her up to that point. Anyway, Im just having a shite day and wanted to yap about something. Peace