My outlook on life

Why I think the way I think: for a bit of context growing up I’ve always been bad at whatever I’ve done, such as sports, fitness, academically, socially, or just simply existing. I remember a year ago my brothers friends came over. They were all talking about parties, friends and girls. Then the topic got put onto me, they asked why was I “acting nonchalant” at school and everywhere I go. This conversation spiralled into me having no friends, being un-athletic and talking to no one. My brother agreed with them and, “wished he was never related to me” the worst part was that later on, I was thinking about what happen and realised they were right, I don’t have anything good about me, and my family would most likely benefit from me not being around. Moving on to another example revolving around my family in general, is that my parents seemed to heavily dislike me. Saying that, “I’ll never be as half as good as my brother” and, “they wished they never had a son like me” these examples might be a little bit vague but I don’t want to bore. But getting on topic, everywhere I’ve gone i’ve been disliked, mocked, made fun of, and hated. At some point you can clearly see what’s causing the problems. Me. So, I’ve learned to accept that I’ll never be anything more than a failure. For the people still reading (I don’t want this to negatively affect your life, or how you feel) In parent teacher interviews, the teachers had the same thing to say about me. They said that I don’t understand the work and can’t grasp concepts, they were considering making me repeat the year. All in all, you guys should try and forget about people like me I don’t have any real value to bring to you, and I never will. When you get told the same thing by people who don’t have any mutuals with each other, I feel like that’s enough to draw a baseline conclusion. Anyways thanks for listening.